This post is somewhat of a downer and just me being emo. You have been warned
In traditional blogger fashion, I’ll start by apologizing for the slow activity of the past few days. Truth is that I have a lot on my plate, some of it MMO related and I just didn’t feel like blogging. Today, I was supposed to be writing an angry rant about Swtor 1.4 and how it screws us out of Black hole comms and shit but events conspired it seems to change this.
But first, for this whole post to make sense I’ll backtrack a bit. For a few weeks now Swtor has been a rocky boat for me and for a lot of people in our guild. Some of us are wary of any Bioware news, we’ve had trouble keeping motivation up and people have been tiring of grinding dailies and doing the same raids over and over. Add to that that we are stuck on the first boss of EC hardmode and things are pretty grim.
When you’re raid leader in a situation like this is takes a toll on you. I care about the people in the guild and I want us to succeed but I couldn’t find any good solution that seemed to both satisfy people and allow us to progress without losing members in the process. But as was to be expected any move I make is usually met by half the people being happy with it and the other half not being happy with it and trying to reinvent the wheel. I know they are meaning well but it’s very tiring. I’m stuck in that very familiar place as a raid leader where you have no idea what the right move is and you feel any mistake you make will make things worst.
Just to make things really interesting, Swtor the game itself has quite a few issues and keeps changing the raiding rules around which makes everything that much harder. It’s hard for me to pinpoint the exact causes of our struggles and just yesterday I was convinced that our issues were mostly due to a combination of number output and I thought our solution would be to farm TfB story a while for some gear before making more attempts at EC hm.
And this morning I was proven wrong beyond the shadow of a doubt when our allied guild which usually is a bit slower on progression than us managed to down the boss that has been giving us so much trouble. So what am I to do with this? Do I start yelling at my guild to stop sucking? Do we head in there and beat ourselves against the wall for hours? Honestly at this point, I have no idea.
So I’ll do the only thing I know is going to produce some results. I’ll work on my character and my rotation and my performance for a while and stop worrying about the damn raids and whether or not the game or the guild will survive. If things go to hell I’ll go down fighting and knowing I did my best. As for where we’re going and how we need to handle raid content I’ll let the others decide for a change.