Mojeaux commented on my last post that I was sounding more and more like a grumpy old monkey and that a break might be in order. Wich in itself might be more or less right.
Am I grumpy? If I’d have to be honest I’d say yes. Or rather I’d say I’m tired wich leads to me being grumpy and having no patience. Why am I so tired?? MMOs… bored with WoW, tired of herding cats in raids?? Nope not at all. This is a case of Real Life(tm) kicking me in the nuts repeatedly for the past month.
Normally I love to keep my real life private. I don’t have a Facebook and never will, I don’t use Twitter since I believe you guys have no interest in when I go to the bathroom and you will rarely see me speak up about my personal life on this blog besides some general non-committal stuff.
However this time I will make an exception to get to my point. I’m a chronic insomniac. I have trouble falling asleep and getting rest from sleep. I even have the medical paper to go along with it. Over the years I’ve tried all sort of weird and strange remedies with none of them really working. I’ve learned to live with it but it does affect my life. Just like a lot of chronic illnesses, chronic insomniacs go through “good” phases and bad ones. February was an especially bad one for me. I’ve been basically sleep deprived for over a month.
Also, I’ve been under a lot of pressure at work, had to find a new apartment for next year(thankfully that’s done now!) and life normal little trials and I can say I’m happy February’s over.
So MMOs have nothing to do with my current state of “grumpiness”, rather they help me a lot to relax and think about something else. When I’m in ICC raiding I’m thinking of how to down Putricide and the fact I have a 16 hours work day the next day doesn’t bother me so much anymore. I get to forget all that, relax and really have fun. I’m a firm believer that MMOs are there to allow us to have fun and relax and that I should not bring my RL troubles into a game.
That said I’m still human and not sleeping for a long time tends to make you want to strangle people not moving out of fires! 🙂
So here’s to March and hoping for a good night rest.