Foreword: First of all I suggest you go read this post by Kaozz over on her blog. She echoes a lot of my sentiments regarding the current WoW. Also, this is ranty, you have been warned.
First of all, this is a post I’ve rewritten four times, my recent lack of updates is mainly because I’ve had a lot of trouble recently putting my thoughts in order and figure out what I was really feeling. I haven’t found the final and definitive answer, but it’s becoming clearer and clearer that I’m coming to a crossroad regarding my playing WoW.
Recently I’ve joined the World of Tanks beta and it made me realize that I wasn’t having fun with WoW anymore. Everyday I would think of playing WoW but when came the time to actually play it I would launch WoT or even go do the dishes instead. When I did manage to muster the interest to log into I would not stay logged unless someone else I knew was logged. Even then, I would chat with them and not actually play the game.
Kaozz made me realize this with her post and now knowing that I wasn’t having fun I set out to figure out why. It took me some time because ultimately, I agree with all the changes happening in Cataclysm. I love the new instances, zones and new gameplay changes. I love that heroics are hard and require effort to complete them. There’s nothing I would change. So why am I not having fun anymore?
Because I’m not the playing the game the way it was meant to be played by the designers. I read the recent Ghostcrawler post and I feel disconnected from it. I understand and even agree with all of it but I read it and I think it’s not for me. Myself and most of the people in Walk the Plank are now oddities in WoW when compared to a vast portion of the community. We’re all very casual, playing when we feel like it and when time allows. We’re not out for epics, achievements or guild levels. Yet, we do like the occasional raid and we do want to progress our characters with heroics for example. We can’t do that anymore in Cataclsym since we’re a small guild that doesn’t always have five member ready to run heroics. Some might be on alts, doing professions or just plain messing around.
We’re fine with that too. Putting no pressure on our member and letting them do what they want is something I’m very proud of. But it has for downside that we’re small in numbers. While recruitment is the obvious answer, recruiting enough for our kind of guild is a very hard task. Like I said, we’re mostly oddities in the current progression oriented community. With enough time and persistence we might solve our problems but in the meantime we’re stuck. I don’t know how the others are seeing this but for me it is a problem not being to be able to progress anymore because I chose to be in a small casual guild.
WoW is fine, it’s a well made game and I believe its current state is the best we’ve had yet. However I get the feeling that it was not intended with my current play style in mind. Years ago I would have loved every moment of it, now I don’t care for all the strings that come with progression play. I don’t want to be bogged down with attendance, performance review, meters and all that bells and whistles of raiding.
So I’m back at the crossroads. I have a few choices I see open before me. I could soldier on despite the odds and pray that time fixes everything. Yet, reading about the game direction doesn’t lead me to believe things will get better. I could disband, join up with another guild (got a few offers) and pray that this time the promesses of remaining casual despite raiding will hold true. I’ve been down that path numerous times and every single time before it didn’t pan out. I’ve learned that given enough time, every casual guild turns into a hardcore guild or dies as the raiders leave. Finally, I could leave WoW forever and be done with it.
I’m still thinking about all of this and while I have not reached any final decision a few things have been decided. First of all, whatever happens I stick to my “Stand on Silvermoon” idea. The solution must not involve server transfer. My friends are all on Silvermoon, I’ve transferred my stuff there and I’ve learned a server transfer is not guarantee of a solution. Second, if I am to quit WoW, it will be final. I don’t have much interest anymore for the way WoW does things. It’s not that it’s bad, simply that I’ve played WoW for six years and even the new stuff feel old. You can only reskin stuff so often before it becomes all the same.
Sorry about the rant, still pondering and wondering and thank you for allowing me to write all of this down. It does helps to see clearer.